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Dec. 11th, 2007 02:09 am

Seem to have neglected this for a little while. Well to catch you up quickly no longer with matt ended badly with lots of stalking and phoning of the police when he was banging on our windows and doors and trying to break into nanas house. Still to this day look over my shoulder when walking home from a night out.
Since then I have been seeing someone called Dean from durham. He is lovely and our first date was amazing. we went to a quiet little pub in durham and then decided to go back to his to watch a dvd as it had been planned i would stay over. In the car park he seemed really nervous and kissed me which was really nice. we went back to his to watch a dvd and one thing lead to another...three times (oh dear *blushes*) anyway never heard nothing from him for ages. Keep going to his for one reason only which makes me feel dirty, found out he has a gf so our rendevous' are long between. I think im falling for him and he says he loves me but i know if he did he would leave his gf...frankly dont know why i keep going back to him.
Been texting a guy from work, Chris, he got my number from one of the supervisors after doing a double up call with me, which i thought was sweet. We have been texting for a few days now and he is really sweet. Always telling me im gorgeous and everytime i see him when i leave he texts me saying 'you look nice today' how cute. we must text each other AT LEAST 50 times a day and i always look forward to waking up on a morning for my good morning text. He seems so caring. Texting him makes me so happy and warm inside but at the moment thats all it is. Watch this space.

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Mar. 25th, 2005 02:35 pm OH DEAR!!! HOW WORRYING!

You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
















Cut Throat








Natural Causes




How Will You Die??
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You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.


Unipolar Depression


Eating Disorders


Borderline Personality Disorder


Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder


Antisocial Personality Disorder




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Mar. 22nd, 2005 09:47 pm

found out gran has got a 'shadow' in her chest. i have a really bad feeling about this. not sure whats gonna happen but the hospital have said shes not strong enough to get through any operations or anything. i am absolutely devastated but gonna try and think as positively as possible. think gonna be staying down there abit more now want to be with her and try and make things easier for her!

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Jan. 1st, 2005 02:29 pm HANGOVER

such a bad hangover didnt get in til about 4am and apparantly left the front door ajar and some dude who knew nics dad came in and asked me who i was and i just went back to sleep n nic slept through it...luckily he locked door and posted key back through it...eeek how dangerous.

spent mucho money on my phone texting random people. not sure who but got text from guy met when queuing up for oasis tix saying happy new year etc.

was good night though and enjoyed it. going to the pub this afternoon to get drunk again hehehe. how fun x

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Nov. 25th, 2004 12:41 am Pro-Plus....

....wonderful invention!!!! x

Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic

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Nov. 24th, 2004 12:33 am New job

First night at the new job and it couldnt have went better. For the first time in a while I feel happy. I have went to work and actually enjoyed it. The people are all extremely nice and they all went out of their way to make me feel extremely welcome. The delivery was hard work as it involved lifting heavy boxes..nothing I cant handle though. Im back again tomorow for another delivery :D:D:D

Found out tonight that Maurice has now admitted that he knows where my Gran's jewellry is and that it is locked away in his room. It was decided that he will come to my Gran's on friday with excorts from Social Services and return it to her.

Right best be off was just a quickie tonight as going down Grans again and she is expecting me!!!


Current Mood: crazycrazy

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Nov. 23rd, 2004 12:20 am LIES!

Turns out Grans husband is moving out. He's temporarily moving into a nursing home down the road and then all the way down to leicester next monday...not far enough away if you ask me, but you know.

He cunningly thought he could smuggle all Grans jewellery with him. He schemed against her trying to make her and everyone else believe that she was losing her marbles, but we all know this couldnt be further from the truth. However, his aspirations of doing this were briskly flattened when she wrote a list of every single item missing.
Gran is pretending as if she doesnt mind, but she is clearly deeply emotionally wounded. She is bound to be she has been married to the man for many years. Staying over tonight to make sure everything is OK!

Went to work for training and it would appear that they had accidently messed up and told me the wrong day :( start properly tomorow then 6-11pm helping with the delivery. Really looking forward to it as the people seem really lovely and it seems from an outsiders point of view to be a very cool job.


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Nov. 20th, 2004 06:09 pm My Firstest Entry

Hello im Carly :D

My lovely friend Sarah introduced me to live journal. I wanted a livejournal, because i always meant to keep a diary, maybe this will help me, we shall see!!

Will post something more interesting later, lol.

Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Mr Ashcroft

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